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celebratoryTopic: Travel
One of my favorite Jamie Cullum songs, "All at Sea," is my soundtrack for the next few days. As you read this, I am boarding my first cruise ship and heading to Cozumel.
"I'm all at sea, where no one can bother me. Forgot my roots, if only for a day. Just me and my thoughts, sailing far away."
The only things going with me are my bestie Angela and a bottle of Wilson Creek Almond Champagne, which traveled all the way from Temecula, California to reach my lips.
"Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul, please just leave me right here on my own. Later on you could spend some time with me, if you want to, all at sea."
As many of you are aware from reading this blog, I've been under copious amounts of stress in the last year. May God have mercy on your soul if you've had to cross my path. I am a mess—it's a wonder I have people in my life to put up with my attitude and short temper.
"I'm all at sea, where no one can bother me. I sleep by myself, I drink on my own, don't speak to nobody, I gave away my phone."
Last week, my doctor gave me the news—I have high blood pressure. Oh really, doc? I also grind my teeth every night, crack my neck and knuckles, and can't sleep for more than two hours at a time. Thanks for that update though.
"Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul, please just leave me right here on my own. Later on you could spend some time with me, if you want to, all at sea."
I don't know how I got to this place that makes me irritable and unable to sleep. All I know is, my friend Angela has come to my rescue (and it's not the first time).
"Now I need you more than ever, I need you more than ever, now."
I would bargain a majority of my stress begins with my need to save funds. Because of that, I can't do many things I used to do for stress relief—no manis, pedis, facials, massages...wine bars... So it's just a never ending cycle.
"You don't need it every day, but sometimes don't you just crave to disappear within your mind?"
But I'm not alone in my anxiety; Angela is going through it, too. So to save us, her family put us aboard this ship. And I couldn't be more thrilled.
"You never know what you might find."
The ship will leave the Port of New Orleans today, and sail to Cozumel by Saturday where we have planned an excursion—a Mexican cooking class. After that, we head back to New Orleans and dock Monday.
"So come and spend some time with me. We will spend it all at sea."
Between here and there, I plan on putting my liver to the test. I couldn't tell you the last time I had a carefree night out. I've also heard great things about the meals aboard ship, and the cute waiters who serve it. And with Angela by my side, I can only imagine the fun we are about to have.
"Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul, please just leave me right here on my own."
Although this is a vacation and not a therapy session, there are a few things I'd like to leave at sea in hopes of returning a little refreshed.
1. Lack of sleep. I'd like to be able to sleep a good six hours before I wake up. The sleepless nights are getting old.
2. Worry of getting hurt. I have been struggling to find confidence in love simply because of my past. I want to wash the slate clean and appreciate what I have (even more than I already do).
3. Dependence. I am independent in paying my bills and maintaining a house. But I feel I've lost a little bit of it in trying to find my own way in work and in love and happiness.
So, cheers to a long weekend with my best friend. We're finally taking a much-needed vacation and plan to make the absolute most of it.
"Later on you could spend some time with me, if you want to, all at sea."
All aboard!
